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| Preface | I. Introductory Statement | II. Manner of Conversions | III. Particular Instances |
But to give a clear idea of the nature and manner
of the operation of God's Spirit, in this wonderful effusion if
it, I would give an account of two particular instances. The first
is an adult person, a young woman whose name was Abigail Hutchinson.
I fix upon her especially, because she is now dead, and so it
may be more fit to speak freely of her than of living instances:
though I am under far greater disadvantages, on other accounts,
to give a full and clear narrative of her experiences, than I
might of some others; nor can any account be given but what has
been retained in the memories of her friends, of what they have
heard her express in her lifetime.
She was of an intelligent family: there could be
nothing in her education that tended to enthusiasm, but rather
to the contrary extreme. It is in no-wise the temper of the family
to be ostentatious of experiences, and it was far from being her
temper. She was, before her conversion, to the observation of
her neighbors, of a sober and inoffensive conversation; and was
a still, quiet, reserved person. She had long been infirm of body,
but her infirmity had never been observed at all to incline her
to be notional or fanciful, or to occasion any thing of religious
melancholy. She was under awakenings scarcely a week, before there
seemed to be plain evidence of her being savingly converted.
She was first awakened in the winter season, on Monday,
by something she heard her brother say of the necessity of being
in good earnest in seeking regenerating grace, together with the
news of the conversion of the young woman before mentioned, whose
conversion so generally affected most of the young people here.
This news wrought much upon her, and stirred up a spirit of envy
in her towards this young woman, whom she thought very unworthy
of being distinguished from others by such a mercy; but withal
it engaged her in a firm resolution to do her utmost to obtain
the same blessing. Considering with herself what course she should
take, she thought that she had not a sufficient knowledge of the
principles of religion to render her capable of conversion; whereupon
she resolved thoroughly to search the Scriptures; and accordingly
immediately began at the beginning of the Bible, intending to
read it through. She continued thus till Thursday: and then there
was a sudden alteration, by a great increase of her concern in
an extraordinary sense of her own sinfulness, particularly the
sinfulness of her nature, and wickedness of her heart. This came
upon her, as she expressed it, as a flash of lightning, and struck
her into an exceeding terror. Upon which she left off reading
the Bible, in course, as she had begun; and turned to the New
Testament, to see if she could not find some relief there for
her distressed soul.
Her great terror, she said, was, that she had sinned
against God: her distress grew more and more for three days; until
she saw nothing but blackness of darkness before her, and her
very flesh trembled for fear of God's wrath: she wondered and
was astonished at herself, that she had been so concerned for
her body, and had applied so often to physicians to heal that,
and had neglected her soul. Her sinfulness appeared with a very
awful aspect to her, especially in three things; viz. her original
sin, and her sin in murmuring at God's providence-in the weakness
and afflictions she had been under-and in want of duty to parents,
though others had looked upon her to excel in dutifulness. On
Saturday, she was so earnestly engaged in reading the Bible and
other books, that she continued in it, searching for something
to relieve her, till her eyes were so dim that she could not know
the letters. While she was thus engaged in reading, prayer, and
other religious exercises, she thought of those words of Christ,
wherein He warns us not to be as the heathen, that think they
shall be heard for their much speaking; which, she said, led her
to see that she had trusted to her own prayers and religious performances,
and now she was put to a nonplus, and knew not which way to turn
herself, or where to seek relief.
While her mind was in this posture, her heart, she
said, seemed to fly, to the minister for refuge, hoping that he
could give her some relief. She came the same day to her brother,
with the countenance of a person in distress, expostulating with
him, why he had not told her more of her sinfulness, and earnestly
inquiring of him what she should do. She seemed that day to feel
in herself an enmity against the Bible, which greatly affrighted
her. Her sense of her own exceeding sinfulness continued increasing
from Thursday till Monday and she gave this account of it: That
it had been her opinion, till now, she was not guilty of Adam's
sin, nor any way concerned in it, because she was not active in
it; but that now she saw she was guilty of that sin, and all over
defiled by it; and the sin which she brought into the world with
her, was alone sufficient to condemn her.
On the Sabbath-day she was so ill, that her friends
thought it best that she should not go to public worship, of which
she seemed very desirous: but when she went to bed on the Sabbath
night, she took up a resolution, that she would the next morning
go to the minister, hoping to find some relief there. As she awakened
on Monday morning, a little before day, she wondered within herself
at the easiness and calmness she felt in her mind, which was of
that kind she never felt before. As she thought of this, such
words as these were in her mind: The words of the Lord are pure
words, health to the soul, and marrow to the bones: and then these
words, The blood of Christ cleanses from all sin; which were accompanied
with a lively sense of the excellency of Christ, and His sufficiency
to satisfy for the sins of the whole world. She then thought of
that expression, It is a pleasant thing for the eyes to behold
the sun; which words then seemed to her to be very applicable
to Jesus Christ. By these things her mind was led into such contemplations
and views of Christ, as filled her exceeding full of joy. She
told her brother, in the morning, that she had seen (i.e. in realizing
views by faith) Christ the last night, and that she had really
thought that she had not knowledge enough to be converted; but,
says she, God can make it quite easy! On Monday she felt all day
a constant sweetness in her soul. She had a repetition of the
same discoveries of Christ three mornings together, and much in
the same manner, at each time, waking a little before day; but
brighter and brighter every day.
At the last time, on Wednesday morning, while in
the enjoyment of a spiritual view of Christ's glory and fullness,
her soul was filled with distress for Christless persons, to consider
what a miserable condition they were in. She felt a strong inclination
immediately to go forth to warn sinners; and proposed it the next
day to her brother to assist her in going from house to house;
but her brother restrained her, by telling her of the unsuitableness
of such a method. She told one of her sisters that day, that she
loved all mankind, but especially the people of God. Her sister
asked her why she loved all mankind. She replied, Because God
has made them. After this, there happened to come into the shop
where she was at work, three persons who were thought to have
been lately converted: her seeing of them, as they stepped in
one after another, so affected her, and so drew forth her love
to them, that it overcame her, and she almost fainted. When they
began to talk of the things of religion, it was more than she
could bear; they were obliged to cease on that account. It was
a very frequent thing with her to be overcome with the flow of
affection to them whom she thought godly, in conversation with
them, and sometimes only at the sight of them.
She had many extraordinary discoveries of the glory
of God and Christ; sometimes, in some particular attributes, and
sometimes in many. She gave an account, that once, as those four
words passed through her mind, wisdom, justice, goodness, and
truth, her soul was filled with a sense of the glory of each of
these divine attributes, but especially the last. Truth, said
she, sunk the deepest! And, therefore, as these words passed,
this was repeated, truth, truth! Her mind was so swallowed up
with a sense of the glory of God's truth and other perfections,
that she said, it seemed as though her life was going, and that
she saw it was easy with God to take away her life by discoveries
of Himself. Soon after this she went to a private religious meeting,
and her mind was full of a sense and view of the glory of God
all the time. When the exercise was ended, some asked her concerning
what she had experienced, and she began to give an account, but
as she was relating it, it revived such a sense of the same things,
that her strength failed, and they were obliged to take her and
lay her upon the bed. Afterwards she was greatly affected, and
rejoiced with these words, Worthy is the Lamb that was slain!
She had several days together a sweet sense of the
excellency and loveliness of Christ in His meekness, which disposed
her continually to be repeating over these words, which were sweet
to her, meek and lowly in heart, meek and lowly in heart. She
once expressed herself to one of her sisters to this purpose,
that she had continued whole days and whole nights, in a constant
ravishing view of the glory of God and Christ, having enjoyed
as much as her life could bear. Once, as her brother was speaking
of the dying love of Christ, she told him, she had such a sense
of it, that the mere mentioning of it was ready to overcome her.
Once, when she came to me, she said,-that at such
and such a time, she thought she saw as much of God, and had as
much joy and pleasure, as was possible in this life; and that
yet, afterwards, God discovered Himself far more abundantly. She
saw the same things as before, yet more clearly, and in a far
more excellent and delightful manner; and was filled with a more
exceeding sweetness. She likewise gave me such an account of the
sense she once had, from day to day, of the glory of Christ, and
of God, in His various attributes, that it seemed to me she dwelt
for days together in a kind of beatific vision of God; and seemed
to have, as I thought, as immediate an intercourse with Him, as
a child with a father. At the same time, she appeared most remote
from any high thought of herself, and of her own sufficiency;
but was like a little child, and expressed a great desire to be
instructed, telling me that she longed very often to come to me
for instruction, and wanted to live at my house, that I might
tell her what was her duty.
She often expressed a sense of the glory of God appearing
in the trees, the growth of the fields, and other works of God's
hands. She told her sister who lived near the heart of the town,
that she once thought it a pleasant thing to live in the middle
of the town, but now, says she, I think it much more pleasant
to sit and see the wind blowing the trees, and to behold in the
country what God has made. She had sometimes the powerful breathings
of the Spirit of God on her soul, while reading the Scripture;
and would express her sense of the certain truth and divinity
thereof. She sometimes would appear with a pleasant smile on her
countenance; and once, when her sister took notice of it, and
asked why she smiled, she replied, I am brim-full of a sweet feeling
within. She often used to express how good and sweet it was to
lie low before God, and the lower (says she) the better! and that
it was pleasant to think of lying in the dust, all the days of
her life, mourning for sin. She was wont to manifest a great sense
of her own meanness and dependence. She often expressed an exceeding
compassion, and pitiful love, which she found in her heart towards
persons in a Christless condition. This was sometimes so strong,
that, as she was passing by such in the streets, or those that
she feared were such, she would be overcome by the sight of them.
She once said, that she longed to have the whole world saved;
she wanted, as it were, to pull them all to her, she could not
bear to have one lost.
She had great longings to die, that she might be
with Christ: which increased until she thought she did not know
how to be patient to wait till God's time. But once, when she
felt those longings, she thought with herself, If I long to die,
why do I go to physicians? Whence she concluded that her longings
for death were not well regulated. After this she often put it
to herself, which she should choose, whether to live or to die,
to be sick or to be well; and she found she could not tell, till
at last she found herself disposed to say these words: I am quite
willing to live, and quite willing to die; quite willing to be
sick, and quite willing to be well; and quite willing for any
thing that God will bring upon me! And then, said she, I felt
myself perfectly easy, in a full submission to the will of God.
She then lamented much, that she had been so eager in her longings
for death, as it argued want of such a resignation to God as ought
to be. She seemed henceforward to continue in this resigned frame
till death.
After this, her illness increased upon her: and once
after she had before spent the greater part of the night in extreme
pain, she waked out of a little sleep with these words in her
heart and mouth; "I am willing to suffer for Christ's sake,
I am willing to spend and be spent for Christ's sake; I am willing
to spend my life, even my very life, for Christ's sake!"And
though she had an extraordinary resignation with respect to life
or death, yet the thoughts of dying were exceeding sweet to her.
At a time when her brother was reading in Job, concerning worms
feeding on the dead body, she appeared with a pleasant smile;
and being asked about it, she said, It was sweet to her to think
of her being in such circumstances. At another time, when her
brother mentioned the danger there seemed to be, that the illness
she labored under might be an occasion of her death, it filled
her with joy that almost overcame her. At another time, when she
met a company following a corpse to the grave, she said, it was
sweet to her to think that they would in a little time follow
her in like manner.
Her illness, in the latter part of it, was seated
much in her throat; and an inward swelling filled up the pipe,
so that she could swallow nothing but what was perfectly liquid
and but very little of that, with great and long strugglings.
That which she took in fled out at her nostrils, till at last
she could swallow nothing at all. She had a raging appetite for
food; so that she told her sister, when talking with her about
her circumstances, that the worst bit would be sweet to her; but
yet, when she saw that she could not swallow it, she seemed to
be as perfectly contented without it, as if she had no appetite.
Others were greatly moved to see what she underwent, and were
filled with admiration at her unexampled patience. At a time when
she was striving in vain to get down a little of something liquid,
and was very much spent with it; she looked upon her sister with
a smile, saying, O sister, this is for my good! At another time,
when her sister was speaking of what she underwent, she told her,
that she lived a heaven upon earth for all that. She used sometimes
to say to her sister, under her extreme sufferings, It is good
to be so! Her sister once asked her, why she said so; why, says
she, because God would have it so: it is best that things should
be as God would have them: it looks best to me.
After her confinement, as they were leading her from
the bed to the door, she seemed overcome by the sight of things
abroad, as showing forth the glory of the Being who had made them.
As she lay on her death-bed, she would often say these words,
God is my friend! And once, looking upon her sister with a smile,
said, O sister, How good it is! How sweet and comfortable it is
to consider, and think of heavenly things! and used this argument
to persuade her sister to be much in such meditations.
She expressed, on her death-bed, an exceeding longing,
both for persons in a natural state, that they might be converted,
and for the godly, that they might see and know more of God. And
when those who looked on themselves as in a Christless state came
to see her, she would be greatly moved with compassionate affection.
One in particular, who seemed to be in great distress about the
state of her soul, and had come to see her from time to time,
she desired her sister to persuade not to come any more, because
the sight of her so wrought on her compassions, that it overcame
her nature. The same week that she died, when she was in distressing
circumstances as to her body, some of her neighbors who came to
see her, asked if she was willing to die! She replied, that she
was quite willing either to live or die; she was willing to be
in pain; she was willing to be so always as she was then, if that
was the will of God. She willed what God willed. They asked her
whether she was willing to die that night. She answered, Yes,
if it be God's will. And seemed to speak all with that perfect
composure of spirit, and with such a cheerful and pleasant countenance,
that it filled them with admiration.
She was very weak a considerable time before she
died, having pined away with famine and thirst, so that her flesh
seemed to be dried upon her bones; and therefore could say but
little, and manifested her mind very much by signs. She said she
had matter enough to fill up all her time with talk, if she had
but strength. A few days before her death, some asked her, Whether
she held her integrity still? Whether she was not afraid of death?
She answered to this purpose, that she had not the least degree
of fear of death. They asked her why she would be so confident?
She answered, If I should say otherwise, I should speak contrary
to what I know. There is, said she, indeed, a darken try, that
looks something dark, but on the other side there appears such
a bright shining light, that I cannot be afraid! She said not
long before she died, that she used to be afraid how she should
grapple with death; but, says she, God has showed me that He can
make it easy in great pain. Several days before she died, she
could scarcely say any thing but just Yes, and No, to questions
that were asked her; for she seemed to be dying for three days
together. But she seemed to continue in an admirably sweet composure
of soul, without any interruption, to the last, and died as a
person that went to sleep, without any struggling, about noon,
on Friday, June 27, 1735.
She had long been infirm, and often had been exercised
with great pain; but she died chiefly of famine. It was, doubtless,
partly owing to her bodily weakness, that her nature was so often
overcome, and ready to sink with gracious affection; but yet the
truth was, that she had more grace, and greater discoveries of
God and Christ, than the present frail state did well consist
with. She wanted to be where strong grace might have more liberty,
and be without the clog of a weak body; there she longed to be,
and there she doubtless now is. She was looked upon amongst us,
as a very eminent instance of Christian experience; but this is
but a very broken and imperfect account I have given of her: her
eminency would much more appear, if her experiences were fully
related, as she was wont to express and manifest them, while living.
I once read this account to some of her pious neighbors, who were
acquainted with her, who said, to this purpose, that the picture
fell much short of the life; and particularly that it much failed
of duly representing her humility, and that admirable lowliness
of heart, that all times appeared in her. But there are, blessed
be God! many living instances, of much the like nature, and in
some things no less extraordinary.
But I now proceed to the other instance, that of
the little child before mentioned. Her name is Phebe Bartlet,
[She was living in March, 1789, and maintained the character of
a true convert.] daughter of William Bartlet. I shall give the
account as I took it from the mouth of her parents, whose veracity
none who know them doubt of.
She was born in March, 1731. About the latter end
of April, or beginning of May, 1735, she was greatly affected
by the talk of her brother, who had been hopefully converted a
little before, at about eleven years of age, and then seriously
talked to her about the great things of religion. Her parents
did not know of it at that time, and were not wont, in the counsels
they gave to their children, particularly to direct themselves
to her, being so young, and, as they supposed, not capable of
understanding. But after her brother had talked to her, they observed
her very earnestly listen to the advice they gave to the other
children; and she was observed very constantly to retire, several
times in a day, as was concluded, for secret prayer. She grew
more and more engaged in religion, and was more frequent in her
closet; till at last she was wont to visit it five or six times
a day: and was so engaged in it, that nothing would at any time
divert her from her stated closet exercises. Her mother often
observed and watched her, when such things occurred as she thought
most likely to divert her, either by putting it out of her thoughts,
or otherwise engaging her inclinations; but never could observe
her to fail. She mentioned some very remarkable instances.
She once of her own accord spake of her unsuccessfulness,
in that she could not find God, or to that purpose. But on Thursday,
the last day of July, about the middle of the day, the child being
in the closet, where it used to retire, its mother heard it speaking
aloud; which was unusual, and never had been observed before.
And her voice seemed to be as of one exceedingly importunate and
engaged; but her mother could distinctly hear only these words,
spoken in a childish manner, but with extraordinary earnestness,
and out of distress of soul, pray, blessed Lord, give me salvation!
I pray beg, pardon all my sins! When the child had done prayer,
she came out of the closet, sat down by her mother, and cried
out aloud. Her mother very earnestly asked her several times what
the matter was, before she would make any answer; but she continued
crying, and writhing her body to and fro, like one in anguish
of spirit. Her mother then asked her, whether she was afraid that
God would not give her salvation. She then answered, Yes,1 am
afraid I shall go to hell! Her mother then endeavored to quiet
her, and told her she would not have her cry, she must be a good
girl, and pray every day, and she hoped God would give her salvation.
But this did not quiet her at all; she continued thus earnestly
crying, and taking on for some time, till at length she suddenly
ceased crying, and began to smile, and presently said with a smiling
countenance, Mother, the kingdom of heaven is come to me! Her
mother was surprised at the sudden alteration, and at the speech;
and knew not what to make of it; but at first said nothing to
her. The child presently spake again, and said, There is another
come tome, and there is another, there is three; and being asked
what she meant, she answered, One is, Thy will be done, and there
is another, Enjoy Him for ever; by which it seems, that when the
child said, There is three come to me; she meant three passages
of her catechism that came to her mind.
After the child had said this, she retired again
into her closet, and her mother went over to her brother's, who
was next neighbor; and when she came back, the child, being come
out of the closet, meets her mother with this cheerful speech;
I can find God now! referring to what she had before complained
of, that she could not find God. Then the child spoke again and
said, I love God! Her mother asked her, how well she loved God,
whether she loved God better than her father and mother. She said,
Yes. Then she asked her, whether she loved God better than her
little sister Rachel. She answered, Yes, better than any thing!
Then her elder sister, referring to her saying she could find
God now, asked her, where she could find God. She answered, In
heaven. Why, said she, have you been in heaven? No, said the child.
By this it seems not to have been any imagination of any thing
seen with bodily eyes, that she called God, when she said, I can
find God now. Her mother asked her, whether she was afraid of
going to hell, and if that had made her cry? She answered, Yes,
I was; but now I shan't. Her mother asked her, whether she thought
that God had given her salvation: she answered, Yes. Her mother
asked her. When? She answered, Today. She appeared all that afternoon
exceeding cheerful and joyful. One of the neighbors asked her,
how she felt herself. She answered, I feel better than I did.
The neighbor asked her, what made her feel better. She answered,
God makes me. That evening, as she lay a-bed, she called one of
her little cousins to her, who was present in the room, as having
something to say to him; and when he came, she told him, that
heaven was better than earth. The next day, her mother asked her
what God made her for? She answered, To serve him; and added,
Every body should serve God, and get an interest in Christ.
The same day the elder children, when they came home
from school, seemed much affected with the extraordinary change
that seemed to be made in Phebe. And her sister Abigail standing
by, her mother took occasion to counsel her, now to improve her
time, to prepare for another world. On which Phebe burst out in
tears, and cried out, Poor Nabby! Her mother told her, she would
not have to cry; she hoped that God would give Nabby salvation;
but that did not quiet her, she continued earnestly crying for
some time. When she had in a measure ceased, her sister Eunice
being by her, she burst out again, and cried, Poor Eunice! and
cried exceedingly; and when she had almost done, she went into
another room, and there looked upon her sister Naomi: and burst
out again, crying, Poor Amy! Her mother was greatly affected at
such a behavior in a child, and knew not what to say to her. One
of the neighbors coming in a little after, asked her what she
had cried for. She seemed at first backward to tell the reason:
her mother told her she might tell that person, for he had given
her an apple: upon which she said, she cried because she was afraid
they would go to hell.
At night, a certain minister, who was occasionally
in the town, was at the house, and talked with her of religious
things. After he was gone, she sat leaning on the table, with
tears running from her eyes; and being asked what made her cry,
she said, I was thinking about God. The next day, being Saturday,
she seemed a great part of the day to be in a very affectionate
frame, had four turns of crying and seemed to endeavor to curb
herself, and hide her tears, and was very backward to talk of
the occasion. On the Sabbath-day she was asked, whether she believed
in God; she answered, Yes. And being told that Christ was the
Son of God, she made ready answer, and said, I know it.
From this time there appeared a very remarkable abiding
change in the child. She has been very strict upon the Sabbath;
and seems to long for the Sabbath-day before it comes, and will
often in the week time be inquiring how long it is to the Sabbath-day,
and must have the days between particularly counted over, before
she will be contented. She seems to love God's house, and is very
eager to go thither. Her mother once asked her, why she had such
a mind to go? whether it was not to see fine folks? She said,
No, it was to hear Mr. Edwards preach. When she is in the place
of worship, she is very far from spending her time there as children
at her age usually do, but appears with an attention that is very
extraordinary for such a child. She also appears very desirous
at all opportunities to go to private religious meetings; and
is very still and attentive at home, during prayer, and has appeared
affected in time of family-prayer. She seems to delight much in
hearing religious conversation. When I once was there with some
strangers, and talked to her something of religion, she seemed
more than ordinarily attentive; and when we were gone, she looked
out very wistfully after us, and said, I wish they would come
again! Her mother asked her, Why? Says she, I love to hear 'em
talk.
She seems to have very much of the fear of God before
her eyes, and an extraordinary dread of sinning against Him; of
which her mother mentioned the following remarkable instance.
Some time in August, the last year, she went with some bigger
children to get some plums in a neighbor's lot, knowing nothing
of any harm in what she did; but when she brought some of the
plums into the house, her mother mildly reproved her, and told
her that she must not get plums without leave, because it was
sin: God had commanded her not to steal. The child seemed greatly
surprised, and burst out in tears, and cried out, I won't have
these plums! and turning to her sister Eunice, very earnestly
said to her, Why did you ask me to go to that plum tree? I should
not have gone, if you had not asked me. The other children did
not seem to be much affected or concerned; but there was no pacifying
Phebe. Her mother told her, she might go and ask leave, and then
it would not be sin for her to eat them; and sent one of the children
to that end; and, when she returned, her mother told her that
the owner had given leave, now she might eat them, and it would
not be stealing.
This stilled her a little while; but presently she
broke out again into an exceeding fit of crying. Her mother asked
her, What made her cry again? Why she cried now, since they had
asked leave? What it was that troubled her now? And asked her
several times very earnestly, before she made any answer; but
at last said, It was because, because it was sin. She continued
a considerable time crying; and said she would not go again if
Eunice asked her an hundred times; and she retained her aversion
to that fruit for a considerable time, under the remembrance of
her former sin.
She sometimes appears greatly affected, and delighted
with texts of Scripture that come to her mind. Particularly about
the beginning of November, that text came to her mind, Rev. 3:20,
"Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear
my voice, and open the door, I will come in, and sup with him,
and he with me." She spoke of it to those of the family with
a great appearance of joy, a smiling countenance, and elevation
of voice; and afterwards she went into another room, where her
mother overheard her talking very earnestly to the children about
it; and particularly heard her say to them, three or four times
over, with an air of exceeding joy and admiration, Why, it is
to sup with God. Some time about the middle of winter, very late
in the night, when all were a-bed, her mother perceived that she
was awake, and heard her, as though she was weeping. She called
to her, and asked her what was the matter. She answered with a
low voice, so that her mother could not hear what she said; but
thinking that it might be occasioned by some spiritual affection,
said no more to her: but perceived her to lie awake, and to continue
in the same frame, for a considerable time. The next morning she
asked her, whether she did not cry the last night. The child answered,
Yes, I did cry a little, for I was thinking about God and Christ,
and they loved me. Her mother asked her, whether to think of God
and Christ loving her made her cry? She answered, Yes, it does
sometimes.
She has often manifested a great concern for the
good of others' souls: and has been wont many times affectionately
to counsel the other children. Once, about the latter end of September,
the last year, when she and some others of the children were in
a room by themselves, husking Indian corn, the child, after a
while, came out and sat by the fire. Her mother took notice that
she appeared with a more than ordinary serious and pensive countenance;
but at last she broke silence, and said, I have been talking to
Nabby and Eunice. Her mother asked her what she had said to them.
Why, said she, I told them they must pray, and prepare to die;
that they had but a little while to live in this world, and they
must be always ready. When Nabby came out, her mother asked her,
whether she had said that to them. Yes, said she, She said that,
and a great deal more. At other times, the child took opportunities
to talk to the other children about the great concern of their
souls, so as much to affect them. She was once exceeding importunate
with her mother to go with her sister Naomi to pray: her mother
endeavored to put her off; but she pulled her by the sleeve, and
seemed as if she would by no means be denied. At last her mother
told her, that Amy must go and pray by herself; but, says the
child, she will not go; and persisted earnestly to beg of her
mother to go with her.
She has discovered an uncommon degree of a spirit
of charity, particularly on the following occasion. A poor man
that lives in the woods, had lately lost a cow that the family
much depended on; and being at the house, he was relating his
misfortune, and telling of the straits and difficulties they were
reduced to by it. She took much notice of it, and it wrought exceedingly
on her compassion. After she had attentively heard him awhile,
she went away to her father, who was in the shop, and entreated
him to give that man a cow: and told him, that the poor man had
no cow! that the hunters, or something else, had killed his cow!
and entreated him to give him one of theirs. Her father told her
that they could not spare one. Then she entreated him to let him
and his family come and live at his house: and had much more talk
of the same nature, whereby she manifested bowels of compassion
to the poor.
She has manifested great love to her minister: particularly
when I returned from my long journey for my health, the last fall.
When she heard of it, she appeared very joyful at the news, and
told the children of it, with an elevated voice, as the most joyful
tidings; repeating it over and over. Mr. Edwards is come home!
Mr. Edwards is come home! She still continues very constant in
secret prayer, so far as can be observed, for she seems to have
no desire that others should observe her when she retires, being
a child of a reserved temper. Every night, before she goes to
bed, she will say her catechism, and will by no means miss. She
never forgot it but once, and then, after she was a-bed, thought
of it, and cried out in tears, I han't said my catechism! and
would not be quieted till her mother asked her the catechism as
she lay in bed. She sometimes appears to be in doubt about the
condition of her soul; and when asked, whether she thinks that
she is prepared for death, speaks something doubtfully about it.
At other times she seems to have no doubt, but when asked, replies,
Yes, without hesitation.
In the former part of this great work of God amongst
us, till it got to His height, we seemed to be wonderfully smiled
upon and blessed in all respects. Satan seemed to be unusually
restrained; persons who before had been involved in melancholy,
seemed to be as it were waked up out of it; and those who had
been entangled with extraordinary temptations, seemed wonderfully
freed. And not only so, but it was the most remarkable time of
health that ever I knew since I have been in the town. We ordinarily
have several bills put up, every Sabbath, for sick persons; but
now we had not so much as one for many sabbaths together. But
after this it seemed to be otherwise.
When this work of God appeared to be at its greatest
height, a poor weak man who belongs to the town, being in great
spiritual trouble, was hurried with violent temptations to cut
his own throat, and made an attempt, but did not do it effectually.
He, after this, continued a considerable time exceedingly overwhelmed
with melancholy; but has not for a long time been very greatly
delivered, by the light of God's countenance lifted up upon him,
and has expressed a great sense of his sin in so far yielding
to temptation; and there are in him all hopeful evidences of his
having been made a subject of saving mercy.
In the latter part of May, it began to be very sensible
that the Spirit of God was gradually withdrawing from us, and
after this time Satan seemed to be more let loose, and raged in
a dreadful manner. The first instance wherein it appeared, was
a person putting an end to his own life by cutting his throat.
He was a gentleman of more than common understanding, of strict
morals, religious in his behavior, and a useful and honorable
person in the town; but was of a family that are exceedingly prone
to the disease of melancholy, and his mother was killed with it.
He had, from the beginning of this extraordinary time, been exceedingly
concerned about the state of his soul, and there were some things
in his experience that appeared very hopeful; but he durst entertain
no hope concerning his own good estate. Towards the latter part
of his time, he grew much discouraged, and melancholy grew again
upon him, till he was wholly overpowered by it, and was in a great
measure past a capacity of receiving advice, or being reasoned
with to any purpose. The devil took the advantage, and drove him
into despairing thoughts. He was kept awake at nights, meditating
terror, so that he had scarce any sleep at all for a long time
together; and it was observed at last, that he was scarcely well
capable of managing his ordinary business, and was judged delirious
by the coroner's inquest.
The news of this extraordinarily affected the minds
of people here, and struck them as it were with astonishment.
After this, multitudes in this and other towns seemed to have
it strongly suggested to them, and pressed upon them, to do as
this person had done. And many who seemed to be under no melancholy,
some pious persons who had no special darkness or doubts about
the goodness of their state-nor were under any special trouble
or concern of mind about any thing spiritual or temporal-had it
urged upon them as if somebody had spoke to them, Cut your throat,
now is a good opportunity. Now! now! So that they were obliged
to fight with all their might to resist it, and yet no reason
suggested to them why they should do it.
About the same time, there were two remarkable instances
of persons led away with strange enthusiastic delusions; one at
Suffield, and another at South Hadley. That which has made the
greatest noise in the country was the conduct of the man at South
Hadley, whose delusion was, that he thought himself divinely instructed
to direct a poor man in melancholy and despairing circumstances,
to say certain words in prayer to God, as recorded in Psalm cxvi.
4, for his own relief. The man is esteemed a pious man. I have
seen this error of his, had a particular acquaintance with him,
and I believe none would question his piety who had such acquaintance.
He gave me a particular account of the manner how he was deluded,
which is too long to be here inserted; but, in short, he exceedingly
rejoiced, and was elevated with the extraordinary work carried
on in this part of the country; and was possessed with an opinion,
that it was the beginning of the glorious times of the church
spoken of in Scripture. He had read it as the opinion of some
divines, that many in these times should be endued with extraordinary
gifts of the Holy Ghost, and had embraced the notion, though he
had at first no apprehensions that any besides ministers would
have such gifts. But he since exceedingly laments the dishonor
he has done to God, and the wound he has given religion in it,
and has lain low before God and man for it.
After these things, the instances of conversion were
rare here in comparison of what they had before been, though that
remarkable instance before noticed of the little child, was after
this. The Spirit of God, not long after this time, appeared very
sensibly withdrawing from all parts of the country, though we
have heard of the work going on in some places of Connecticut,
and that it continues to be carried on even to this day. But religion
remained here, and I believe in some other places, the main subject
of conversation for several months after. And there were some
turns, wherein God's work seemed to revive, and we were ready
to hope that all was going to be renewed again; yet, in the main,
there was a gradual decline of that general, engaged, lively spirit
in religion, which had been. Several things have happened since,
which have diverted people's minds, and turned their conversation
more to other affairs; particularly his Excellency the Governor's
coming up, and the Committee of general court, on the treaty with
the Indians. -Afterwards, the Springfield controversy; and since
that, our people in this town have been engaged in the building
of a new meeting-house. Some other occurrences might be mentioned,
that have seemed to have this effect. But as to those who have
been thought converted at this time, they generally seem to have
had an abiding change wrought on them. I have had particular acquaintance
with many of them since; and they generally appear to be persons
who have a new sense of things, new apprehensions and views of
God, of the divine attributes of Jesus Christ, and the great things
of the gospel.
They have a new sense of their truth, and they affect
them in a new manner; though it is very far from being always
alike with them, neither can they revive a sense of things when
they please. Their hearts are often touched, and sometimes filled,
with new sweetnesses and delights; there seems to express an inward
ardor and burning of heart, like to which they never experienced
before; sometimes, perhaps, occasioned only by the mention of
Christ's name, or some one of the divine perfections. There are
new appetites, and a new kind of breathings and pantings of heart,
and groanings that cannot be uttered. There is a new kind of inward
labor and struggle of soul towards heaven and holiness.
Some who before were very rough in their temper and
manners, seemed to be remarkably softened and sweetened. And some
have had their souls exceedingly filled, and overwhelmed with
light, love, and comfort, long since the work of God has ceased
to be so remarkably carried on in a general way; and some have
had much greater experiences of this nature than they had before.
There is still a great deal of religious conversation continued
in the town, amongst young and old; a religious disposition appears
to be still maintained amongst our people, by their holding frequent
private religious meetings; and all sorts are generally worshipping
God at such meetings on Sabbath-nights, and in the evening after
our public lecture. Many children in the town still keep up such
meetings among themselves. I know of no one young person in the
town who has returned to former ways of looseness and extravagance
in any respect; but we still remain a reformed people, and God
has evidently made us a new people.
I cannot say that there has been no instance of any
one person who has conducted himself unworthily; nor am I so vain
as to imagine that we have not been mistaken in our good opinion
concerning any; or that there are none who pass amongst us for
sheep, that are indeed wolves in sheep's clothing; and who probably
may, some time or other, discover themselves by their fruits.
We are not so pure, but that we have great cause to be humbled
and ashamed that we are so impure; nor so religious, but that
those who watch for our halting, may see things in us, whence
they may take occasion to reproach us and religion. But in the
main, there has been a great and marvellous work of conversion
and sanctification among the people here; and they have paid all
due respect to those who have been blest of God to be the instruments
of it. Both old and young have shown a forwardness to hearken
not only to my counsels, but even to my reproofs, from the pulpit.
A great part of the country have not received the
most favorable thoughts of this affair; and to this day many retain
a jealousy concerning it, and prejudice against it. I have reason
to think that the meanness and weakness of the instrument, that
has been made use of in this town, has prejudiced many against
it; nor does it appear to me strange that it should be so. But
yet the circumstances of this great work of God is analogous to
other circumstances of it. God has so ordered the manner of the
work in many respects, as very signally and remarkably to show
it to be His own peculiar and immediate work; and to secure the
glory of it wholly to His almighty power, and sovereign grace.
And whatever the circumstances and means have been, and though
we are so unworthy, yet so hath it pleased God to work! And we
are evidently a people blessed of the Lord! For here, in this
corner of the world, God dwells, and manifests His glory.
Thus, Reverend Sir, 1 have given a large and particular
account of this remarkable affair; and yet, considering how manifold
God's works have been amongst us, it is but a very brief one.
I should have sent it much sooner, had I not been greatly hindered
by illness in my family, and also in my own person. It is probably
much larger than you expected, and, it may be, than you would
have chosen. I thought that the extraordinary nature of the thing,
and the innumerable misrepresentations which have gone abroad
of it, many of which, doubtless, have reached your ears, made
it necessary that I should be particular. But I would leave it
entirely with your wisdom to make what use of it you think best,
to send a part of it to England, or all, or none, if you think
it not worthy; or otherwise to dispose of it as you may think
most for God's glory, and the interest of religion. If you are
pleased to send any thing to the Rev. Dr. Guyse, I should be glad
to have it signified to him, as my humble desire, that since he
and the congregation to which he preached, have been pleased to
take so much notice of us, as they have, that they would also
think of us at the throne of grace, and seek there for us, that
God would not forsake us, but enable us to bring forth fruit answerable
to our profession, and our mercies; and that our "light may
so shine before men, that others seeing our good works, may glorify
our Father which is in heaven."
When I first heard of the notice the Rev. Dr. Watts
and Dr. Guyse took of God's mercies to us, I took occasion to
inform our congregation of it in a discourse from these words-A
city that set upon a hill cannot be hid. And having since seen
a particular account of the notice which the Rev. Dr. Guyse and
his congregation took of it, in a letter you wrote to my honored
uncle Williams, I read that part of your letter to the congregation,
and labored as much as in me lay to enforce their duty from it.
The congregation were very sensibly moved and affected at both
times. I humbly request of you, Reverend Sir, your prayers for
this county, in its present melancholy circumstances, into which
it is brought by the Springfield quarrel; which, doubtless, above
all things that have happened, has tended to put a stop to the
glorious work here, and to prejudice this country against it,
and hinder the propagation of it. I also ask your prayers for
this town, and would particularly beg an interest in them for
him who is,
Honored Sir,
With humble respect,
Your obedient Son and Servant,
Jonathan Edwards. Northampton, November 6, 1736.
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